i’ve been pushing my own limit these few days. not sleeping for more then 20hours with less then 2hours of rest. i know it’s seriously bad for the body. but i just can’t sleep at night. and with a 2hours power nap before i wake up for the day, i feel so much energy in me though it’s only a 2hours nap. maybe it’s a power nap that’s why i can last. haHAhahha..

someone once told me that an hours nap in the afternoon is equivalent to 2hours of sleep at night. is it true? cos everytime i sleep for 2hours in the afternoon, i would calculate at 4hours slept for the day and 4hours could be minus off from my sleep time at night. haHAhhaa.. is it really true or i’m just trying to convince myself that i have enough rest for the day? haHAhhaha..

anyways.. school’s starting tomorrow. no morning lessons this block. school starts at 3 and ends at 9 everyday. it’s alright i guess. never had night lessons and finally could try a block of night lesson. two factors that made me consider taking the night class. first, i really just wanted to clear my cross disciplinary modules and secondly, i’m gonna have another five weeks of holidays after this block! only 4 weeks of school. holidays here i come! haHAhhaha.. =pp

on tuesday, i went to school for my add/drop session. it starts at 10 so i’ve decided to reach school at 10. during the last few add/drop sessions, i went to school pretty early to get an earlier queue number. but then the queue was quite fast last time so this time, i’ve decided not to go before the session starts.

and so i reached school at around 1005. as expected, there were already quite a number of people in school. i filled in the form and gotten my queue number. 21. so i thought. ohh only 20 people in front of me. how long can it take? but to my surprise, i waited six and a half hours for my turn. i don’t understand why the course manager needs six and a half hours to clear 20 people. although they say they had meetings in between, but six and a half hours is really really too much.

i didn’t had a good night sleep the night before tuesday. i was feeling really tired. i was feeling so restless as well. the six and a half hours wait was really a torture. but i’m really glad that i didn’t have to go back the next day.

although i was feeling really tired, i didn’t wanna go home straight after school. i think i’ll feel damn pissed if i went home. so i went ikea. and went giant after that. ikea’s huge. giant’s huge. i practically couldn’t take it. the place is so big that i really just wanna sit somewhere. but i managed to walk through the place. really really tired.

came home, thought of lying on the couch before i bathe and sleep, but decided to just bathe and have a good night’s rest. went up, bathed, and lying in bed. guess what comes after that? diarrhoea. tired and diarrhoea! i didn’t feel like shitting at that point of time. but the shit wants to come out so badly! within half and hour. i shitted three times. everything came out. everything! and was feeling much better.

slept quite well that night.

ohh no!! i think i have rheumatism! howhow?!

was out with a friend today and i started saying it’ll rain tonight. cos my joints are aching. and true enough, it rained! and now, it’s raining outside and my joints are screaming ‘help me help me’. ohh no! what am i gonna do when i get old!! haHAhhaa..

anywayss.. had a hair cut today. length is abit shorter now. about 3 inches chopped off. but still tie-a-ble so it’s still under the medium hair length category. more layers at the top so if i use wax, i could create a messy messy look, which i’ve always wanted. ahAHhaha.. but i spiked hair is still on the top of my list! ahHAhaha.. but if i don’t do anything to it, it looks much the same except shorter at the back and thinner at the top.

it’s 1:20 now. i have add/drop tmr at 10. but it’s raining!! =( and i’m scared. would you hug me to sleep? =pp

when an owner brings the dog out for a walk, often they use a leash. the dog can run freely, but only to a certain point. although they are outside, not in a cage or behind gates, they’re still trapped by the leash. when the dog runs too far, the leash will pull it back, suffocating it. a dog needs freedom and to be able to run around. who likes to be trapped? the dog and the owner. they do not and won’t understand each other. and since the owner is the boss, the dog doesn’t have a choice but to follow.

there’s many things in life that we have to go through no matter what. there’s always someone above you forcing you to do things you don’t want to, but have to. i’m feeling very suffocated right now. friends keep asking me why am i so bored everytime. i’m just really really very tired of living a life of pleasing others. when will i ever get the chance of living for the sake of myself? when there’s someone constantly controlling you from somewhere.

i really wish i could just ignore the whole world and go into hibernation mode.

Often we see banks urging people to join their program to secure a future. They make plans so that your children can study till university, you’ll have a good life after retirement etc. Some people actually apply for such things but how do you even know if you’ll make it to the future? Spend so much effort for something that’s unknown. Is it worth it?

The last time me would think of the future. How I expect things to be like. My hopes, my dreams. But now, I would rather not think so much. I don’t even know if I would be able to reach there. An accident could just happen in a split second and life could be gone just like that. Why bother so much when you don’t know what is gonna happen in the next moment?

Live life to the fullest. No worries. No regrets. I think the most important thing in life is not your future, weather if it’ll be bright or what. I think it’s being happy. Even if your life is great but you’re not happy with it because you’re not doing things you like, then what’s the point? Others may think you’re happy because you’re leading a great life. But only you yourself know if you’re having a great time or not.

We may not always have a choice. Sometimes we just have to lead a life that’s controlled by someone you have to listen to. Your life is great but you’re not happy. Would you lead that kind of life?

i didn’t know why but yes, i made my second trip to a club last night. haAhhaa.. went to zouk this time. first time there, second time clubbing. went with more friends this time. the music was definitely much better then the other time. didn’t give me headache. and yes, it’s more fun this time round.

friends tried to make me high so made me drink flaming. after i drink they were all tempted and everyone drank! ahHAhaha.. it was not as hot as i’ve expected la the drink. they say your throat will feel hot when drinking but nah, i didn’t feel any heat. ahHAhaa.. think it’s not hot enough. anyways.. got a little high after the drink. but was bearable la.  haHAhha..

overall, last night was fun. but i think clubbing is still not my thing. can go but won’t go that often i guess. so don’t call me a clubber! =)

i just caught the lake house on hbo. and it was a great movie. i don’t really know how to describe the movie. so go watch it if you haven’t.

*highly recommended*

i made my first visit to a club yesterday. although i already know a long time ago that i wouldn’t like clubbing, last night’s experience confirms that.

talked about clubbing with some polymates some time ago and they were saying that they too, won’t dance in a club but they will go there to listen to the music. by what i’ve experienced last night, the music is totally not my type. staying in the club for a while is okay. but as time goes on, the beat of the music is just exploding in my head. and i get this massive headache after awhile.

went to the dancefloor for awhile. friends tried to make me dance. but well, it’s not my kind of thing and i didn’t really enjoy it. i got abit bored of being in there and when we finally got out, i didn’t wanna step in again.

although i didn’t really like everything about a club, it’s a great experience anyways. at least now i can say i’ve been into a club! =)

my results came out yesterday. some were expected some weren’t. my emotions in the past few months have kinda affected my work. as my polymates might have noticed, i totally didn’t care much about work. all they’re goals are to go overseas for internship and continuing in this field after this diploma. but me, i just wanna get over with this diploma and move off to other things.

my interest in this field had greatly decreased over the few months that just passed. when i was in year one, i was still excited and eager to learn something new in school. but now, it’s just boring. everything. i just can’t wait to get over with it. but i still have 3 semesters to go through.

my brother had been telling me that i don’t have to finish this diploma. there’s another choice that i can compile my portfolio and apply for another school in the states. but i’ve been through 3 semesters in poly. another 3 more and i’ll get a diploma (provided i have enough CUs to graduate on time).

i really wanna at least get this diploma. but my interest, it had moved.

i’ve been in hongkong the past few days. from thurs to monday. 5days4nights.

people’s impression of hongkong is usually shop and eat. whole day just walk around, see things, buy thing, and eat when tired. that’s what typical tourist would do in hongkong. i went there two years ago with some friends. and this time, with my elder bro. it’s the same hongkong, but the experience is totally different.

two years ago it was more of a shopping, eat, have fun trip. see anything you like and the price is okay, just buy. this time, i would say it was more of an experience trip. we went around and look for underground things/places. where most tourist won’t go. rather then being typical tourist, i guess it’s more fun to see the real hongkong by exploring the lanes? and it’s also the first time that i never buy anything for myself throughout the whole trip. the only things i got was almond cookies. whole luggage of it. ahAhhaha..

it was fun, except it was very very tiring. we had laughs. lots and lots of laughs. tell you guys more when we meet? =)

overall the trip was juicy. cos it was quite a fruitful trip! haHAhhaa..