i just wanna blog cos this year’s a leap year! and so that i have 29th feb as one of my post! haHAHhahaha.. =pp

i did quite a bit of before bedtime thinking last night before i sleep. thoughts, deep thoughts. hahHahaah.. which might be useless, but who cares, can’t really get to sleep last night anyways.

well, i thought about something that could have happened in the past but i somehow stopped it from happening. and last night, i was thinking if i had made the right choice. should i let it happen then? what would change if it happened? and also, if this thing comes by again, should i stop it or let it happen? haHAhahaha..

haHAhha.. anywayss.. those were last night’s thoughts. tonight is another different night. and on different nights what do we do? we do different things. ahAHahaha.. think tonight i’m just gonna have an old fashion sleep. maybe a short dream would help entertain the mind while the body rests. but what should i dream of? hMmmm..

I’m currently living in a lie. My own lie. I keep telling myself it’s okay. Everything will be fine. But will everything really be okay at the end of the day?

I’m locked in a prison cell. 3 sides are walls and the other is made up of bars. Lifeless inside but beyond the bars, people’s having so much fun, and all I can do is to watch. But whenever I have the chance to get out there, I’ll be so happy, as I do not have the chance to go out there whenever I want to.

Inside me is another prison cell. My feelings and emotions. Their being locked away, deep inside of me. Where’s the key? I don’t know. I think I’ve misplaced it. Do you have it? Can you unlock the cell inside me and let my feelings out? So that I can get out of this prison cell myself.

Please, save me.

today’s a start of a new year, in the chinese calender. the year of the rat! well, all i can say about this year’s new year is that it’s a little different from the past.

today, woke quite early at 10+. watched aeon flux on HBO. and when the show is at it’s ending, the electricity suddenly cut off. my bro and i was like.. what the.. we didn’t know the ending!! hahAHhaha.. but ohh wells. wait till the next time it shows then watch i guess.. haHAhha..

anywayss.. i haven’t had steamboat!! ohh no! i believe everyone have had one steamboat at least. but i haven’t and i dunno if i’ll have it this year. =(

tmr’s the second day and what’s my plans? i don’t really know. see how things goes then.. =)

happy rat year everyone! =))

i woke up at 730 today to go for a walk/jog at macritchie reservoir. it’s been ages since i last exercise and the experience was tremendous. haHAhhaha..

reached macritchie at round 830 and started walking around. walked one whole big round around the canoeing area. didn’t wanna go into the jungle alone so stayed at places where i can see people. at bout 915, darius finally arrived. we then head towards one of the trials.

wanted to try the tree top trial but then darius wanted to run the highway so nevermind lor. I ACCOMMODATE. haHAhah.. took the normal cross country route. run run run. walk walk walk. run run run. came to this area where you can see the reservoir but in the jungle. i don’t know if anyone really noticed that exact spot but since sec 1 when i was running there, i took that as one of the check points.

5mins pass the check point and i can’t take it anymore. actually i can continue jogging one. but darius wanted to run to train for his napfa and i feel bad to make him stop/slow down to wait for me. so, he just went on the route. i head the opposite direction and meet back at the car when we’re both done.

and so i took my time, looking around the jungle. the floor was muddy and slippery. after about 10mins of walking/jogging, i saw a light at the end of the jungle. i felt a sense of relieve. ahHAha.. cos the route seems never-ending.

went toilet and back to the car. and darius is there alr! it’s like wow. he took the long route and we arrived at the car at bout the same time? aHAhahha.. and he was perspiring like mad laa.. imagine i ran along with him. i would have died. haHAhhaha..

went for breakfast and came back after that.

well, it was great exercising, especially after such a long time. and i don’t know when it’ll be the next time i’m gonna exercise. ahHAhaha.. hope it’s soon! =)

chinese new year’s next week and according to tradition, we’re suppose to get new clothes and stuff. but till now, i’ve only gotten myself one top.

this year’s chinese new year doesn’t really have the new year feel. everything this year doesn’t feel right and i don’t know why. well, not really in the mood to shop right now. went around window shopping. well, shopping’s not really my thing i can say. but what to do. i’m a girl and i’m suppose to like shopping and dress up and look nice. but sometimes i just feel tired doing so much. i just don’t feel good if i dress up. haHAhah.. weird eh? needa train up? hMmm..

well, i’m just gonna buy suitable clothes when i see them. not gonna purposely find something to buy just for the festival. no one would notice anyways. i mean the relatives. ahAHhaha..

anyways.. i’m tired.. i wanna go sleep soon. i just feel like lying on the couch now and sleep.. haHAhhaa.. lazy to take a shower so i’m not gonna to! aHAHhaha.. eeee.. so dirty.. haHAhahha.. =pp